Not long little one. Not much longer now.
It’s been 8 months since I first knew of you, first danced because of you. And in those 8 months we’ve walked through so much together, daddy keeping watch all along, big sister marveling at your visible wriggles and jumps.
Those jumps and wriggles, what comforts and joy they have been. So often I thought I was losing you. So often the pain of body and soul left me feeling as though you were sure to be taken from me. But God kept you wrapped safe inside, held my heart safe in His. And the fluttering of your sure, able little body came strong and sure at 17 weeks, lighting up my heart with hope and anticipation.
You haven’t stopped since.
Little one, we’ve struggled to name you because there are so many experiences, people, hopes, and dreams for which you could be named. Our time so close to each other has been so full, so hard, so good. It’s not easy to sum it all up in a name. I’m certain that seeing your face will make it all clear.
Seeing your face.
I haven’t room enough in my imagination to dream of what that will fully be like. I suspect my tears of joy and relief will blur the scene at first, but that once the drops are wiped away, my eyes will be filled with the most precious of sights, the kind of view that doesn’t need a camera for it to be remembered because the connection from eye-gate to heart is so direct and permanent for such moments.
Just a couple more weeks, perhaps even days, and we’ll finally get to hold you in our arms, you who we’ve held so long in our hearts.
//F O R B A B Y
nb sleeper sack (so we don’t have to snap and unsnap PJ’s at night)
pacifier and wooden clip
0-3 mo outfit (in case nb doesn’t fit)
norwex wash cloth (to use instead of soaps on his nb skin)
carseat cover (because it will be cold going home)
carseat head support
//F O R M O M M Y
reusable nursing pads (wonderful, especially at night)
nipple cream (start applying right away!)
witch hazel (for healing post-delivery)
comfy sweat pants (clearance Target find)
comfy T-shirts ($3 clearance Target finds)
going home outfit (stretchy pants with loose fitting top)
hair ties (to keep my hair out of my face during labor)
camera and charger + phone charger
slippers and bathrobe
small fan (because I love a cold, dark room)
dark chocolate covered almonds (my reward for surviving labor)
granola bars (snacks to get me through the first couple nights of nursing)
Trader Joe’s salt water taffy (for nurses)
Thank you notes (for nurses/staff)
tip: print up a list of items you want to include your bag, in your baby’s bag, and in your older kid’s overnight bag. Then put those lists in their respective bags and check off items as you add them in. That way, if you’re adding things (like toothbrushes) last minute, you’ll know exactly which items you have left to add.